I have not been posting lately due to being sick most of December and reflecting on 2011.
I spent Christmas with my son in Medicine Hat it was a great time, great weather. I truly am so very proud of what he has accomplish in the last few years. I used to worry so much about him but he has grown into a fine adult man. While I was there I told him that I was going to turn things around back home this year. I called it something that I will not repeat on here but basically it means that I am going to stop being what everyone thinks I should be and start being who I really am and who God created me to be.
All of my life I have being trying to live up to everyones expectations, not wanting to speak up because I may hurt someones feelings or offend them. It was ok for them to offend and hurt me but I had myself on such a high expectation level that I often felt depressed etc. To the point I would not leave my home cause I knew that I was so depressed and pissed off at the whole world.
I have since come to the conclusion that I don't have to be what others think I should be ( I know I am a good person etc.) I was so scared to say anything that I would say nothing ... no wonder some thought I was abrupt. I was never rude, just got to the point and said no more, nicely.
After reading Gina K.'s blog today I thought I would also share how I have been feeling although the folks that should read this won't at least I will be confessing to how I have been feeling. I don't usually make resolutions for the new year and I am not about to now, but I am going to stop letting my feelings/emotions rule me I am taking control and ruling them from here on in. No more letting things upset me to the point my whole day, month, year is ruined.
This is Gina's mantra for 2012 and I am jumping on board with her.
My mantra for 2012 is:
"How others treat me is their path. How I respond is mine."
I am going to a scrapbook retreat this weekend and I will start posting cards again next week. Thank you for letting me share the above I hope all of you have a great 2012.