I spent Christmas with my son in Medicine Hat it was a great time, great weather. I truly am so very proud of what he has accomplish in the last few years. I used to worry so much about him but he has grown into a fine adult man. While I was there I told him that I was going to turn things around back home this year. I called it something that I will not repeat on here but basically it means that I am going to stop being what everyone thinks I should be and start being who I really am and who God created me to be.
All of my life I have being trying to live up to everyones expectations, not wanting to speak up because I may hurt someones feelings or offend them. It was ok for them to offend and hurt me but I had myself on such a high expectation level that I often felt depressed etc. To the point I would not leave my home cause I knew that I was so depressed and pissed off at the whole world.
I have since come to the conclusion that I don't have to be what others think I should be ( I know I am a good person etc.) I was so scared to say anything that I would say nothing ... no wonder some thought I was abrupt. I was never rude, just got to the point and said no more, nicely.
After reading Gina K.'s blog today I thought I would also share how I have been feeling although the folks that should read this won't at least I will be confessing to how I have been feeling. I don't usually make resolutions for the new year and I am not about to now, but I am going to stop letting my feelings/emotions rule me I am taking control and ruling them from here on in. No more letting things upset me to the point my whole day, month, year is ruined.
This is Gina's mantra for 2012 and I am jumping on board with her.
My mantra for 2012 is:
"How others treat me is their path. How I respond is mine."
I am going to a scrapbook retreat this weekend and I will start posting cards again next week. Thank you for letting me share the above I hope all of you have a great 2012.
6 comments:
Hey Peggy! Can't help but feel for you! It is soooo true - we can't live on our feelings. They flucuate numerous times per day and cause us great distress. When we allow others to dictate who we are and how we should be, we have become someone without boundaries. A good book to read is Boundaries by "Cloud and Townsend" ... we are doing this in our Women's Bible study this spring! As women we think we need to be everything to everybody - whoa!!!!! That's a job no one was ever intended to fill! Wish I could sit with you over a cup of coffee and chat! Praying for yah!!!
You go girl! And Ruthie is right, "Boundaries" is a good book. Enjoy! And don't be so hard on yourself. I am praying for you too.
It sounds like you have been reading my mind. It mirrors how I am so closely. And...I have tried to tell myself so many times that I need to do what I want and not be so consumed with what others think of me. I am a nice person, a child of God. I have just felt that everyone else was right and I was always wrong. I had no confidence in my own judgement, so I kept silent on so many things and bowed to other's ways too often. Your resolution mimicks something a manager of mine said years ago.... we don't have to let someone else control our feelings and reactions. We are in control of them....or should be. It's encouraging to know that someone else is going through the same things we are and that there is hope to improve things for ourselves.
I LOVE your new mantra.... You go for it.... you're going to have a good year.... big hugssssssssssssss
Amen to That!!! YOU go for it and don't look back. No regrets.
Peg, you are singing my song! I am not as confident about success as you are. My one little word this year is "Enough." We'll see how it goes!
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